Something fun and something dumb
Fall is here, weather is changing, the air is getting colder. That means, classes seem to be getting harder, my bodies internal clock keeps ticking, and at the end of the day, no matter how hard I try, I am the saddest, sleepiest girl.
I've seen lots of random girls on my insatgram feed, chopping their hair with a pair of scissors and they look beautiful and they end up going viral. I am pretty sure that isn't going to happen to me, considering my hair only looks even if you close your left eye and tilt your head slightly to the right. But, did I do this to go famous on Instagram? No, I did this after a really bad day. And it was an urge in my gut. But let me slow down..
So, today I had work, and my favorite co-worker walked in with her hair almost completely chopped off, I thought she looked like an eternal bad ass. It reminded me that I needed a trim, my ends were split and fried. I thought to myself "on my way home, I will get a cheap trim, and that will be that" and as the hours of work passed on that stayed on my mind. When work finally ended, I realized a few things, one, I had to take my dog home. Two, I have no money. Three, I had to stop home anyway. So, I went home and my okay day turned to a bad day. When the seasons change like this, bad days seem to continue like this. I guess that is why they call it seasonal depression, because tons of others experience this each season.
As it started to get dark out, I took a shower, dried my hair, put it in braids, and as I was crying, I just chopped my hair.
Was it really stupid?
Do I recommend you just spend the 10$ for a real hair cut?
I guess I did this to not only cross it off of my "dumb teenager list", but really I did it to feel something again. When my scissors sliced through my first braid, my heart stopped and when I realized my hair actually looked okay, its like a thousand happy lightning bolts jolted through my body.
Again, I am NOT telling you to go chop off your hair. Actually I am slowly regretting this, but hair grows back so it's FINE. But I am telling you to go do something this week that will make you feel like a thousand happy lightning bolts just jolted through YOUR body. You deserve that happiness, even during the dreary seasonal depression time. You can do it, I believe in you.