Updating everyone on why I haven't been the blogger/influencer I am trying to be.
Ps none of this makes sense it really is just me ranting about my recent depression lol.
Let's just be honest with ourselves. When we get out of bed, we look awful. When we just had a big crying session in our car or the work bathroom, we look awful. When we are scrounging to get bills paid or to get homework done, we look AWFUL. When we all have those moments, do you think to post on Instagram? Do you get up from the bathroom floor after a breakdown, wipe off your destroyed makeup or splash water on your puffy eyes to pose for a selfie? No, no one does that, because sometimes it feels as if social media only glorifies the happy times in life. So does that mean everyone posting the perfectly posed picture is happy?
Everyday people put on masks, and not just through Instagram but through day to day lives. Your co-worker that smiles and deals with work all day long is probably having extreme personal issues, if it isn't that co worker then maybe it's another. Sometimes it's you. But as badly as sometimes we want to stay in bed, we need to get out there and adult. You may think, why? "Why do I need to put on a face and save all of my crap for home or personal time?" "Why can't I just scream out to the world that I am not having a good day, and that no one should talk to me?" These are almost everyday thoughts for me, and I know I am not alone. Getting out of bed is hard, sometimes showering or making my own food is hard. And I know others struggle too.
My point is..
I promise, my depressed self has a point. My point is, stop hiding your sadness and feelings. If someone is hurting you, tell them or find better people in your life. If a job feels toxic? Quit and find a better job for yourself. If a partner is being abusive PLEASE get help. If you are following people on your social media that make you feel less worthy, hit the unfollow button. Life is hard. Feelings are hard. Getting up everyday and making the gamble if the day will be good or not is SO hard. Sometimes, all together being a human sucks. That is why doing small things like reflecting on what is making you cry is important. Small smiles or small relief's of stress can take you SO far mental health wise.
I have been diagnosed with depression since I was 16 years old, depression has only gotten worse since I have had to take care of myself and have not had a mother or father around to remind me to do simple things. But, I get up everyday. Out of the seven days of the week, something good is bound to happen and that is what I look forward to. I cry almost everyday, sometimes I cry because I just need to let it out. Being sad is okay, struggling with depression/anxiety is okay. My challenge to you this week is to try to find the smiles throughout your week, I am going to challenge myself to this so I am challenging everyone else!
If this did not make sense, I am so sorry. If it did I hope you enjoyed and I hope I helped a little bit. You can face any challenge thrown at you, I know it.
Self love is important, here are some key ways to finding self love!
Hey guys! This is a super simple post, just in case anyone out there may need it. I needed to remind myself these things the other day, so maybe someone needs it too! Have an amazing day and as usual thank you for reading!
Each Day, Remind Yourself How Cool You Are!
I like to do this in the morning, I look in the mirror and remind myself something that I love about me! Whether it be my eyes, how happy I am, what I have recently accomplished, or even on my eye makeup skills (which I have none of..)! Small things can lead to great things when recognizing things you love about yourself.
Check Your Surroundings.
Check your day to day habits. Are they healthy? Are they leading you to be a happy person? Look around at your friends and family, do you need some alone time? Maybe more time with them? Sometimes doing a small check-up on your day to day habits helps you realize lots of things, it is a nice refresher.
Count Your Blessings
Sometimes this world gets hectic, and our lives get crazy with it. So next time you are feeling down about yourself, sit in front of the mirror and take a moment to recognize that you truly are a beautiful person. Despite some flaws we all have, we all truly do have them, you ARE beautiful. Realize it and be happy for it!
Do What You Want, Be What You Want
Sometimes, when we lose self confidence we lose ourselves. We feel like we cannot move, as if we are trapped somewhere. So my last tip is, when you wake up everyday, remember that the day is new and you can conquer whatever you want to. Work hard, keep waking up, keep LOVING yourself. You are strong and capable of what you want to do! Love what you do, and most importantly, love you!
Grab your "Grannie Panties", time to assemble the troops, AKA my personal survival kit & guide for your next period.
Mother Nature has a kind way of reminding us women that we are not pregnant. Well that is if you consider bleeding constantly, with the feeling of World War Three going on in your stomach a "kind way".
With the amount of pain a period can give you, along with several other side effects (mine include: Tiredness, weak muscles, headaches, cries way too easily, swelling in several uncomfortable places and much more, it depends to be honest.) Getting out of bed everyday is super hard for us girls, let alone going to school or work. So let me guide you through a day on my period and what I use/do to make the day tolerable and comfortable!
Mornings are already hard enough. The period makes mornings ten times harder. So here are my simple tips and advice to help your long period mornings. When you wake up, you may feel gross or just drained. As usual, wash your face, brush your teeth, give yourself time to shower the next morning (if needed, but I shower in the mornings on my period everyday!)
After you are feeling clean, head to your room, and pick out the COMFIEST outfit you can! My period attire consists of, leggings, over-sized tee's, sock with sandals, a sweater (I get on and off cold) and a sports bra with grannie panties underneath. NEVER wear lingerie you care about during your period, that is common knowledge but this is your REMINDER!
(If you do wear an item you love on accident, spray some Shout Stain Remover on it!)
Make sure you give yourself enough time to pack up tampons/pads/cups for the day, along with the proper amount of pain killer you need!
Mid-Day/ What to Eat/ What to take.
Okay, when I am half way through the day, that is usually when it is the worst period time. For lunch, I attempt to pack myself the freshest things I have. For example, a fruit bowl, veggie tray, salad, things like that. Of course on my period I have my fattening snacks that I adore, but grease and sugar can actually make your cramps worse, along with several other foods we adore, (source, https://www.eatthis.com/foods-for-period-symptoms/https://www.eatthis.com/foods-for-period-symptoms/ ) that is why packing any greasy, fattening food for the middle of the day is an awful idea. You might not finish the day without awful cramps!
Mid-Day is when I always take my medication for either the first or second time of the day. By then it has already been 4-6 hours since I have taken it last, and that is the recommended time to take more medication/pain reliever.
My go to pain reliever is "Brazen". During my period, I do not like to put lots of medication in my body. My body is already going through a lot, I do not need to throw tons of pills on tops of it. That is why I use Brazen for my pain relief. It is a natural substance, and it smells like cinnamon! The best part is, all of the ingredients are natural, cruelty free, and it actually helps. It is a subscription box, and it arrives to your door as soon as your cycle starts. HIGHLY recommend this product, especially if you are like me and love natural products!
Basically, take the mid-day as a time to regenerate, drink water, change your pad/tampon/cup, get fresh food, sit down if you need to, or if you have been sitting all day I suggest walking around! Being slightly active always helps me with my cramps. Remind yourself the day is almost over and soon you can go home!
Congratulations, you made it through your whole day and you are home. I like to change when I get home from work, so that is a suggestion of mine, it helps you feel nice and fresh.
The evening is all yours! Lay down if you need it, for a heating pad I always use my "Warmie" Warmies are stuffed animals, full of heating beads, they also smell like fresh lavender. Once you finish warming it up it is your new cuddling best friend. I got mine from Aerie, but here is the companies website, HIGHLY recommend these for bad cramps, WARMIES!
Your night time routine should almost stay the same. The only difference to my routine, I increase my skin care routine time. My period helps me break out very easily, therefore I add an extra 5-10 minutes to get all of the dirt and oil off. Sometimes I use my essential oil diffuser, but when on my period, I always use it with lavender oil! I also rub some lavender oil on my temples, and where my stomach hurts the most. The scent is calming, and really helps me sleep better!
And that is how I survive my monthly beat downs from Mother Nature! I hope this helps some of my friends out there and goodluck to all of my loves out there dealing with awful periods. Thank you for reading! And as usual follow my Instagram that is on the right of the screen! >
To any of my readers who may feel like they are in a dark place right now.
Do you ever have those days where you simply do not want to get out of bed? Everything around you seems like it may be crashing. The whole world feels like it is collapsing right in front of you and all you can do it sit there and watch. I personally feel this at least once a week, sometimes I am tempted to throw my whole life away and start a new one where no one knows who I am. The reason why I am sharing these thoughts is because I know that I am NOT alone out there. You never know who out of your friends or family may be suffering with dark thoughts such as mine. YOU may be suffering as well. And if you are, although there is not much I can do to help personally, I can give you a list of thoughts that make me smile. That may be simple and silly to some people, but even the smallest, simplest thing as a small smile can change your whole day, in the best way.
Come meet my Rottweiler, Stuart!
Hello guys, welcome back to my blog and if you are new, then welcome! Today I am going to be talking about my sweet 5, (almost 6!) month old puppy. But most of all I am going to talk about why he deserves nothing but love from everyone who sees him. Let me start from the very beginning, when we got Stuart!
Our Stuart, or our Stu was born January first, 2019. He was our New Year miracle! Now we did not even know about Stu until one day, my dad was joking about getting another dog, specifically a Rottweiler. Now although my dad's tone did not sound too serious, I decided to look around my area to see if anyone was placing one up for adoption, or selling one. Soon enough we found a breeder that was a two hour drive from us. She was a VERY sweet breeder and she seemed very trust worthy, so about a week later, we packed up the car and made the two hour drive. Once we arrived, we met several puppy Rottweiler's. But, for some reason, our Stuart stood out to us the most.
After a few weeks of Stuart growing, he was ready to part from his mom and siblings, and join our family! By the end of February, he was officially ours. Instantly, this puppy became a part of our family. Not only was he the cutest thing ever, but he is our sweetheart. He also learned a lot about our family.
Stuart has especially grown a special relationship with two family members. Brandon (left) is my older brother who was born with CHARGE syndrome. This means he was born with several challenges, such as deaf-blindness. Although Brandon acts different compared to others, Stuart fell in love with him, and is a patient loving puppy around him always. He knows that he can be playfully rough with everyone in the family, but with Brandon he knows he has to be extra soft. On the right is Stuarts older brother, Sam. Sam had a hard time with Stuart coming into the family (sometimes he still does, ahah!) but, at the end of the day they love playing with each other, and sharing cuddles with my family.
Now here is my rant.
Now that you have gotten to know my angel, I hope you know what a sweetie he truly is. He is only 10x sweeter in person, he will give you tons of kisses, but in my family we call his face kisses "Rottie Facials". Everyone that knows him, loves him. That is, except for the one grumpy man in the Subaru.
This past Sunday, my family and I decided to go on a walk. Stuart loves walks. He is a puppy and has ton of energy, why would he not love to go on a walk with his family?! So, we leashed and harnessed him up and went on our walk. Side note, because Stu is still a puppy, we practice "healing" while going on walks. Although he is not fully trained, he is a very smart puppy and very well behaved. Anyway, we decided to walk to our local gas station to get some Sunday treats. Because dogs are not allowed in the store, Stu and I waited outside. Although Stuart was very eager to follow the rest of his family into the store, he sat outside patiently while watching his family in the store. I thought the moment was so precious, I decided to snap a picture or two.
As I was taking these pictures I was just thinking how truly grateful I am for my pup. He came to us in such a unique way, yet he was SO perfect for us. He was responding to my "heal" command and waiting patiently- what an angel! Suddenly my moment was interrupted, by the grumpy old man in the Subaru. An old man walked out of the store and looked at me and my Stu, I awkwardly smiled at him wondering what on earth he was staring at, then he said as he was walking to his car, "You are going to get the dog killed one day." My awkward smile instantly dropped. "What? Excuse me what did you just say?" I asked at least twice, he ignored me, got into his parked car and sat there, staring at my Stuart and I. I then peaked my head into the gas station, saw my dad and said "Dad I think someone just threatened our dog, I can't tell." I told him, and practically announced it to the rest of the store, then pointed at the man. If he was going to come out and approach me again, I wanted people to know that I was not comfortable. My dad poked his head out and gave him a dirty look, the coward then drove away, in his old, beat up Subaru.
That night I went on a few Social Media platforms to post my rant. Other Rottweiler owners commented and told me that I should get used to it, they have been through similar situations before. This made my heart break even more. Apparently Rotties, Pittbulls, Bulldogs, and so many more sweet, sweet breeds go through situations like that every single day. That is why I decided to go public about our recent situation. So, if you are reading this as a non dog owner, please believe me and other dog owners when we say, our sweethearts are NOT monsters. Yes, some dogs can get violent, but do not assume that with every big breed you meet. If you are afraid of dogs, do not approach them and they will do the same. If you have questions about the big breed, ask the owner! The big breed owner community loves to educate people about their sweetheart.
OVERALL though, do NOT discriminate my Rottie, or any other big breed without getting to know the pup first. If the grumpy old man was having a bad day, my Stuart would have been more than happy to give him kisses to make him feel better.
STOP the discrimination against ALL breeds. They are dogs. DOGS. If you personally have any questions about my Stuart, comment below and I would LOVE to answer.
Thank you all for reading my story about my puppy. I hope you all learned something from this blog post. Like/comment below!